This is a very toned down version of what I wanted to originally say, it’s been hard to hold my tongue about all the disgusting shit going on here, so instead of venting I’ll just tell you tldr.
The reason for my leaving is quite simple, you only need to know what has happened over the years, and the fact alone that I've been here for 6 years. What was my passion, escape and my source of enjoyment has turned into burden and source of toxicity.
It feels dead to me, a dead end and this feeling has been present throughout last year for the entire time I tried to salvage dying server, but I didn't recognize it or want to admit it to myself that it's time to move on.
There’s something I want to say: money doesn’t drive me. RSCRevolution has taken its toll on me and it’s been pretty damaging to my mental health. There’s no amount of money that could have made up for that which is why I have never done this for money and it’s always been for the community.. For the same reason I’ve turned down offers to buy RSCRevolution that have been very generous… but useless to me.
“But didn’t the deal with Billy go bad because you wanted more money?”
If you think about it black and white, it might seem that way. Fact is, it was about what I learned from the other person by doing that which was the dealbreaker and not the money itself. To this day I still stand by my decision to cancel the deal, the only thing I’d change is not offering the deal.
I tried to come back for 2020 after the christmas break and the feeling I described above was not going away like I expected it to.. It was just stronger than before which lead to thoughts of doing less, leaving, just anything else than this and shortly going from “I’ll be doing less” to “I’m leaving”.
Big part of what killed RSC for me was the disgusting people in this scene.. snakes, hypocritical, deceiving, manipulating, selfish, entitled, ungrateful and unfortunately the handful of good apples here don't make up for the rotten ones. There’s so much to inform you about but I’d rather not go on that route. It’s better to just leave it behind.
The other part is.. There’s nowhere to go from here, I’ve done everything there’s to be done, and a bit more. I’d take back a couple updates if I could to be honest. Because of RSCL and it’s leak we’ve had to compete by doing custom unique things that maaybe haven’t been all that great ideas after all.
RSCRevolution isn’t something I’d play myself. Due to few custom updates I don’t like, the mentality of players, etc. the game really isn’t enjoyable, and hasn’t been for good while. I’m a PKer at heart, and this ganking, big team, multi bullshit and ‘hardcore’ pkers have absolutely destroyed any hope I had for functioning wilderness. For two years I’ve just thought, well the game isn’t for me and not bother.
I’m leaving with the last big gift, I’ve rewritten the server core and making sure it functions correctly and efficiently, utilizing proper concurrency techniques and synchronization, the entire process took about one month of active daily development. There was lots of bad code and design all over the place because of how I’ve mostly rushed things due to always feeling like there's a big pile of dishes to do, but the pile isn’t getting smaller. And let me tell you there’s no server that has fixed these issues if anything they’ve added on top of them... RSCRevolution being the first at it again while others jerk around until it’s handed to them (bitter joke)..
Thank you all for supporting me through the years, and continuing to appreciate what I’ve built over the years. There are a good amount of genuine people left here and I appreciate each one of you a lot.
Thank you RSCRevolution Staff! Our current team especially has the most genuine people I’ve been around for good while which is something I can appreciate. Players shouldn't forget that they’re volunteering to help, tone down with your demands.. and don’t give them shit for minor mistakes.
EDIT: I've deleted my RSCRevolution discord account (n0m), and demoted myself on RSCRevolution. If you want to send me a message I might check my inbox on this forum account few times before I don't anymore.